The games people play …

Fine!

It’s just fine! That guys are allowed to use certain words and you are not. Being a girl means you have to be all lady like and decent and coy and whatever the society deems as respectable behaviour for the so called fairer sex?!

Ok fine its not that I am saying I walk about to create controversy, but then I do like to do my own thing.

FINE!

Isn’t this a free country? So whatever happened to my right to freedom of speech?

It’s a breech on my constitutional right and I need a lawyer to fight my case. I am not going to take this lightly.

(the devil – isn’t that what they want you to o? retaliate?)
The devil has a point! FINE

FINE you want to mess with me?
I’ll show you how it’s done  “Let’s put a smile on that face...” courtesy the Joker, The Dark Knight.

See the thing is sometimes we work so hard to be something we are NOT.
But with me, I just can’t do that.
What you see is what you get.

Sometimes you grow up , but you still know what’s right for you and what’s not. I fail to understand why some people think it’s in them to judge other people.
It beats the crap out of me to be and do something just because it makes somebody else happy.

Call me selfish, call me whatever you want.
But the world is full of morons and I am not going to be mingle amongst them.

So BACK OFF & leave me alone!
I love my life just the way it is
And what you want to say, you can do so by talking to my hand.

the happening...

saturday. bored. washing. cleaning. crap. paint. nails. sleep. alarm. sleep. message. sleep. message. phone. dress. stockings. chappals. salon. hostel. room. sleep. out. pizzeria. friends. pizza. icetea. nariman point. hostel. friends. bandra. homes. movie. the dark knight. boring. super boring. cupcake. interesting. pinching. card exchange. late. back. ride. home. food. friends. banter. goodnight. dark. sleep. fun. dreams. reality. moonlight. nala. simba. dream. forest. peaks. eyes. blanket. fuzzy. tickly. smiley. crazy. silence. heavy. sleep. dreams. grip. night. morning. alarm. wink. gone.
did it happen?
was it just a dream...

searching...

the last to last month
has taught me
that copy is not
NOT where i want to be
i don't want to be
sitting indoors
typing
thinking
i just want to be free
free to paint
free to experiment
free to be me

the last month
i have nothing
to prove
i have been bored
bored beyond boredom
i find no inspiration
nothing that i can be proud of

the last to last month
i have gone there
i have seen that
i have achieved so much
much more than
i could have ever dreamed of
and some how
i was
very very happy
exploring
living a dream
that's what i did
and that's where
i realised
this is not
definitely NOT where i want to be!

and then there's this
reviews
and things you have to do
even when
you don't want to
but still you have to live through
on some anlaysis
on the way things
should have gone
or not
trust me, definitely NOT

the last month
the boredom crept in again
more than ever
this time on
i have been losing control
more importantly
i have not been loving
what i usually loved

the last month
i have been questioning
everything
my thoughts, my words
my actions
and somehow i can't find
what i am looking for!

how it unfolded...

So what did I do?

Well for starters you wouldn’t want to know. And secondly I wouldn’t tell you

My birthday this year, I celebrated rather quietly. I don’t know why, but I just wanted it to be that way

So I did what I would do on any normal Saturday

Got up at 12 I think in the afternoon

And checked my mobile

And holy shit there were like a 1000 messages and missed calls

So I returned a few calls and let the rest be

Cause by then my Mama & Papa were calling me

I miss being home on my birthday

This was the fourth year I was away

May be next year the whole family will be together and you could sing me Happy Birthday

I had fun, my way

Washed half a bucket of clothes

Ate absolutely horrendous lunch

Put on a face pack, caught a wink

Before it was time to go

Well it was painful dressing up

I tried being me and even bent a nail

Ouch!

But there I was, as always indecisive

Shoes or sandals

Something so simple, yet I couldn’t decide till the rain played

Then you came

And my day got started

The dinner and the place, but that hardly mattered

The gifts will stay, yes they made by day

But it’s what followed that had me grinning in a crazy way

There were friends, extended family, they say

I am no one to complain

I love my birthday

And you in a very special way

I couldn't believe the day was so perfect

I thought something was going to go wrong

But I think I had my share of bargains

So God had blessed me now in a very special special way

I am not the one to pray

So trust me when I say this

Thank you Lord, for everything I had on my birthday

Thank you for my parents

Thank you for my brother

Thank you for my cat

Thank you for my cupcake

Thank you for my friends

Thank you for my extended family

Thank you for everything

For life, for love

And helping me bring a smile to each one’s face

its my bday

OMG its my bday
and i am loving every single moment of it

25! The year that was…

I remember how it started
How could I forget
I hated it
And I could not believe it
That something like that could happen to me

But now when I look back and see
I see you and see a whole different me
The experiences changed me
It put life more in perspective
And realize that life is all about me

You won’t realize how much there is out there
All you got to do is venture there
Care not what others tell you
Just trust your heart
Give it all that you’ve got
And make sure you send me a postcard when you reach there

Then came a day I just woke up
And decided I’ve had enough
Living my life according to others
Is what I’ve done all my life
Now it’s my turn and you got to listen

So I packed my bag
And decided I had to go
Go to Europe
See the world
And know what’s in store

Rewinding a little more
I even adopted a child
A grown up kid in my office if no other
A costly affair
But he’s just a little baby as far as I know

There were rock concerts too
And trips with friends
Best friends getting married
Babies being born
Yellow cars, pink watches,
Meeting new people and so much more

And then came the day I had to tell
Something to someone
Who could well be the person
I could call mine

Ever yours…
Ever mine…
Ever thine…
Something so special
That makes me feel so happy and divine

25
A year that brought the best in me
Challenges I thought not possible
But were meant to be
So now I know
No matter what they tell me
I simply have to believe
Because belief helped me find ME!

what is it that you...

I really really L _ _ _ you…

Like. Lick. Leap. Land. Lamb. Lust. Leaf. Luck. Laic. Lama. Lost. Lose. Lope. Load. Live. Laud. Less. Lied. Loco. Lode. Logo. Lore. Lake. Line. Loan. Lone. Lice. Lite. Lure. Lead. Limb. Lime. Love. Lint. Loss. Loft. Lift. Lips. Loaf. Laid. Lock. Lily. Link. Long. Last. Laws. Lord. Loan. Lith. Life.

I would like to thank...

my Mama and my Papa and my little brother Lovell aka peekachoo, MM, love, for all the support and financial backing offered. I cannot reiterate enough without whom this trip would not be successful.

I would also like to thank the Knight of Eden aka stalker, who continually supported my dream and came around me with me, haggling with vendors to get me the perfect backpack and almost all the things I need for this trip. Most of all for listening to me raving and ranting about this and that. And for teaching me to keep my cool.

Mostly I would love to say a big thank you to animagix to showing me the way. For making me realize my dreams. And I must say dreams do come true. Thanks a ton sweetie. You are my true inspiration.

I would also like to thank the Don, for offering to drive me to the airport and the Khooni Haathi for coming along with me to get my travel insurance. I would also like to thank the goddess of Nirvana for getting me contacts in them foreign countries.

And I would also like to thank Cox & Kings (I) Ltd., Mumbai for all the help and fantastic support offered, especially Mr. Mehere.

And then yatin, and my boss for giving me this super 1 month leave, my team members (you guys are so dead :) ) and all the people on who had something or other to do with my preparations.

Thanks a ton guys!

I’ll keep ya posted how its going.

Blogressphy

I am. You know who I am!

You know how I am. I live life as it comes. No rules. No definitions. I just do my own thing. I live in the moment, ‘cos that’s the way I am.

What I hate are charts and rules. I know what I want and it’s in my head. I do not need to define it on paper or have it staring at me pinned on a wall.

And I absolutely hate wasting money. I would rather spend money on good food than wasting it. Just the thought of doing so makes me mad.

I have had no shortage of the luxuries in life, but I do not flaunt it.

All said and done, I am blogging to get my irritation out.

Blogging helps me in ways I can't even tell you. I call it my “Blogressphy” (as in you know, Blog + Stress Therapy)

And I absolutely hate it when my plans get postponed. Things just don’t happen. You have to ALWAYS make them happen.

I am going to make this happen!

I will do what it takes… kicking your ass too, if I have to.

So stand out of my way.

Cos I am an angry young woman today.

a DREAM that's coming true

u know there comes a time in your life
when you got to do what you got to do
well
here i am
doin just that

for the record
i do not have a lot of money
actually i planned this dream trip on 60k finances of my own
rather ambitious no?
and the rest... a lakh and something from my folks and brother
so that goes to say
after this trip of mine
i will be even poorer than before
and paying off a lot of debts :(
and to top it off am not on a huge salary at work (i so wish i were getting some 50-60K a month)

BUT
like i said this is a dream
a dream i dreamt
and i had to make it come true
before the clock struck 12 on 28th June 2008!!!

so here i am, in 4 days leaving for EUROPE!

yup u heard me right E U R O P E

i will tell you all about it in the weeks that go by
well i will be leaving on friday/saturday night in the wee hours of the morning
so my posts might not be very regular
but I promise to update you on each and every detail on tour

this people is MY LIFE CANT WAIT DREAM!
mine and mine alone