Believe

Things will change
After all Christmas is just around the corner

These last few weeks
I simply hate
Nothing seems to come of it
But only working late

The love has gone
Now it’s simply hate
I don’t love what I do
You cannot force me to change my decision
But it’s true

I want to go
This is the end for me
That I know!

nlm u world

The Big Idea

From moleskin art

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i am so bored i am so bored so super bored my mind is spinning in boredom don't know what to do how to get away from this cyclonic storm that is pulling me under i try to read but i know that's not what i want to do i want to be out there explore new places simply get away from this crappy stuff i am so bored i want to paint i want to take out my frustrations doing something i love how did things get this way how did i let anything else but my passion stand in my way this is not me this has never been me i am lost i know what i want yet i am lost there's no one to help me but myself most of the days it's like simply following a pattern since when did i become one to follow something anything anyone i hate this i really hate it and with the rain coming down i think i will drown who is there to help me there were days when crazy was good freak was good now it's like watching from the shadows am i going through a mid 20s crisis after all i will be 28 soon what have i done with my life there's so much to do and so little time i don't want to do everything that everyone does i just don't want to do it can't you understand i hate it i detest it so much that it rips the insides of me every time i have to do it how much longer do i have to wait there's no option you say things will improve give it some time well i don't want to give it any time why should i what should i do instead just watch life pass me by well one of these days i am not going to wait much longer i am just going to do what i do best i am going to follow my heart and screw all of you i am going after my dream and there's no telling me what to do.

sayin it the way it is

Are you from the f@%#ing advertising industry?
You bet f@%#ing I am!
Now is that f@%#ing good, or is that f@%#ing bad?
What am I supposed to f@%#ing make of it?!
Who f@%#ing cares anyway?

F@%#ing rule number 1:
Your success in advertising will depend on the f@%#ing number of times you can use the word f@%# without having the next person react to it!

Now what is f@%#?
Urban dictionary defines it as. (f@%# Oxford or Webster’s!)
1. The universally recognized "F word"
2. N. Implying complete and utter confusion
3. N. a really stupid person
4. V. To procreate
5. adj. Can be used to modify any word for more passion
6. Int. Expresses disgust
7. Int. Expresses complete surprise and joy
8. adv. Can be used to make a command more urgent

Make a note this people. F@%# is the only word in the English language that can form a grammatically complete, stand alone sentence.
In your face F@%#ers

Or like how… I would normally say it DUMBF@%#s! (rolling my eyes)

Pure evil thoughts

Baby pigeon with a note:
"I am too dumb to figure out that I am a bird. I could fly!"
SPLAT!

(evil laugh! evil evil laugh)

The ugly names I’ve been called!

Jaw lean
Ju lene
Jew lean
Jaw Line
Joo lene
Jolee
Jolin
Jelen
Jolena Seriously WTF!
Julienne
Johnny?!! FFF

Here’s for all you dumbf@$#s
And bl**dy well stick to the pronunciation, or just call me JO!

How to pronounce Jolene:
Phonetic Pronunciation: joe-LEEN

And in case you are still feeling alphabetically challenged,
click here to hear the pronunciation

lets learn your A, B, Cs...

Adam
Bi***
Cat
Damn
Eew
F&%$
Gross
Hate
Ignore
Jealous
Kill
Lovesick
Moan
Nuts
Oops
Piss-off
Queer
Racist
Satan
Tragic
Undo
Vixen
Wish
Yell
Zinc

girls vs boys

you can hate them but you just cant ignore them
i love boys. but i hate them too ;P

Stuck!

In the wrong profession.
And hate it with a growing passion every single day.

The media. Argh!

Is the media right in covering everything that happens?
Aint we giving the terrorist even more info?
Yah right, the cable wires have been cut, but hello these people are terrorist, does the media honestly think they don’t have satellite phones, through which main organization can relay information.

So the media wants their TRPs to go up.

On the other hand the justification offered?! Everybody wants to know what’s happening, so relay it after consultation with the officials on what info can be diverged with!

I mean here the media is relaying live action, commandos breaking on the roofs, rescue operations. WHAT ARE WE DOING??
Supplying first hand info to the terrorist!
Army jawans, police personnel are loosing their lives and who is to be blamed for this?
The terrorist or the media?

What about the people who are trapped in. We all want to know what’s happening to them. All I am saying is do things, in a rational manner.

News should be news, it shouldn’t be relayed in a manner that could prove harmful to the lives of people who are trying to help or the hostages.
I hope the media realizes this, before it is too late.

yeah i did it & i dont even know how!

watch and be amazed.
and for the record, i hate politics.
i hate american shite!
and i don't care what happens there.
but
but
i love a good video, especially since its to do with me :)

thanks dee!

don't ask me why...

The rAgE within!

I am fuming with rage. It’s eating me through and now you tell me to do things differently, when there’s no time to?

Where were you when I needed you?
Why din’t you help me when I asked you to?
And now you say, lets do something innovative, kick ass?! kick ass??!!!

The only kick ass thing I will be doing is KICKING YOUR ASS through and through!
#$%% in moron!
GO TO HELL!



Breathe girl breathe…

when so called "best friends" act smart :(

It is a Tuesday like no other. A) because bad things happened to good people (that is me) & more importantly because I had to provide my “best friend” aka Rockstar with reasons and instances why I am truly hurt!
And to top it off he even barfed! HOW RUDE!

So over gtalk this is what happened.
And it gets ugly…
and in brackets and italic my comments :(

Here begins from A-Z

Me:
A) no party on ur promotion
B) no panda

Rockstar: god u
no TV

Me:
C) no plasma tv
D) u don't even want to meet us
E) u don't even want to meet us on friendship day

Rockstar: i dint
realise it was friendship day ok

F) u don't even reply to chats
G) u don't even try to reply to chats
H) u pretend to NOT be at ur seat

Rockstar: my god
u have lost it
go get a life

(see the steady stream of insults?? … I still pursue, broken spirit and all…)

Me:
I) u don't read my blog
J) u never comment on my blog
K) u ignore my chat messages
L) u always do
M) N then u call me ur best friend
N) U never have time for me
O) u don’t even remember my blogs name

Rockstar: listen just visit a doc before u get home

(see the attitude?!)

Me:
P) u mock me

Rockstar: feelingbluengreenyellow

Me:
Q) then you google stuff and mock me, if mockin me in the first instance wasn’t enough

Rockstar: listen chill
i need to lave fr coll

Me:
R) u tell me to chill
S) then u say you have to go
T) u lie to me

Rockstar: bye bye bye
BYE

(see the caps used, he is screaming, screaming at me!)

Me:
U) u cut my conversations
V) mock me repeatedly

Rockstar: bye

Me:
W) never do wot i ask you, unlike vice versa

Rockstar: man

Me:
X) dont even read wot i say
Y) log off & cut me off
Z) push me to killin myself
GOOD BYE CRUEL WORLD

He’s gone… POOF! See I told you, nobody cares. Not even my so called best friend.

The games people play …

Fine!

It’s just fine! That guys are allowed to use certain words and you are not. Being a girl means you have to be all lady like and decent and coy and whatever the society deems as respectable behaviour for the so called fairer sex?!

Ok fine its not that I am saying I walk about to create controversy, but then I do like to do my own thing.

FINE!

Isn’t this a free country? So whatever happened to my right to freedom of speech?

It’s a breech on my constitutional right and I need a lawyer to fight my case. I am not going to take this lightly.

(the devil – isn’t that what they want you to o? retaliate?)
The devil has a point! FINE

FINE you want to mess with me?
I’ll show you how it’s done  “Let’s put a smile on that face...” courtesy the Joker, The Dark Knight.

See the thing is sometimes we work so hard to be something we are NOT.
But with me, I just can’t do that.
What you see is what you get.

Sometimes you grow up , but you still know what’s right for you and what’s not. I fail to understand why some people think it’s in them to judge other people.
It beats the crap out of me to be and do something just because it makes somebody else happy.

Call me selfish, call me whatever you want.
But the world is full of morons and I am not going to be mingle amongst them.

So BACK OFF & leave me alone!
I love my life just the way it is
And what you want to say, you can do so by talking to my hand.