just yesterday

It was just yesterday that I was a little girl
All I had to do was play
Today I am not so little anymore but…
I just want to play in the mud
With my imaginary friends
Eat dirt.
Eat chocolates.
Get pampered.
And go out to play again.
Want to stitch clothes for my dollies.
Pretend to ride my papa’s scooter.
Play with my baby brother.
Dress him up and pretend he was my little sister.
I want my drawings adorning the fridge door.
I want a treat from grandma.
I want to play with my Barbie’s.
Also want to rob tamarind from grandma’s store room.
Fight with my cousins and go tell mama.
Not make any decisions.
Tell mama what my brother did.
I want to play with Tommy.
I just want to be that little girl.

do u c what i c?

2008…

Dreams.
Europe. Turkey. Italy. Switzerland. France. UK. David. Art. Sistine chapel. Paintings. Sculptures. Travel. Disneyland. Eiffel Tower. And new cultures.
I miss my adventure so much, there’s not a day I wish I was back roaming the pebbled streets in Europe, especially Italy.

Love.
Prince Charming. Ogre. Wall-e. Cupcake. Chubby. Bonn-e.
Diamond ring. My diamond ring.
Found the one I was looking for… finally! And it has been worth the wait.

Family.
Away. Missing. Memories. Surprises. And lots of love. Good food. Pampering. Relaxation.
Going home is always special, mama, papa, tommy leanne & lovell (if he’s back from hyd)

how it unfolded...

So what did I do?

Well for starters you wouldn’t want to know. And secondly I wouldn’t tell you

My birthday this year, I celebrated rather quietly. I don’t know why, but I just wanted it to be that way

So I did what I would do on any normal Saturday

Got up at 12 I think in the afternoon

And checked my mobile

And holy shit there were like a 1000 messages and missed calls

So I returned a few calls and let the rest be

Cause by then my Mama & Papa were calling me

I miss being home on my birthday

This was the fourth year I was away

May be next year the whole family will be together and you could sing me Happy Birthday

I had fun, my way

Washed half a bucket of clothes

Ate absolutely horrendous lunch

Put on a face pack, caught a wink

Before it was time to go

Well it was painful dressing up

I tried being me and even bent a nail

Ouch!

But there I was, as always indecisive

Shoes or sandals

Something so simple, yet I couldn’t decide till the rain played

Then you came

And my day got started

The dinner and the place, but that hardly mattered

The gifts will stay, yes they made by day

But it’s what followed that had me grinning in a crazy way

There were friends, extended family, they say

I am no one to complain

I love my birthday

And you in a very special way

I couldn't believe the day was so perfect

I thought something was going to go wrong

But I think I had my share of bargains

So God had blessed me now in a very special special way

I am not the one to pray

So trust me when I say this

Thank you Lord, for everything I had on my birthday

Thank you for my parents

Thank you for my brother

Thank you for my cat

Thank you for my cupcake

Thank you for my friends

Thank you for my extended family

Thank you for everything

For life, for love

And helping me bring a smile to each one’s face

I would like to thank...

my Mama and my Papa and my little brother Lovell aka peekachoo, MM, love, for all the support and financial backing offered. I cannot reiterate enough without whom this trip would not be successful.

I would also like to thank the Knight of Eden aka stalker, who continually supported my dream and came around me with me, haggling with vendors to get me the perfect backpack and almost all the things I need for this trip. Most of all for listening to me raving and ranting about this and that. And for teaching me to keep my cool.

Mostly I would love to say a big thank you to animagix to showing me the way. For making me realize my dreams. And I must say dreams do come true. Thanks a ton sweetie. You are my true inspiration.

I would also like to thank the Don, for offering to drive me to the airport and the Khooni Haathi for coming along with me to get my travel insurance. I would also like to thank the goddess of Nirvana for getting me contacts in them foreign countries.

And I would also like to thank Cox & Kings (I) Ltd., Mumbai for all the help and fantastic support offered, especially Mr. Mehere.

And then yatin, and my boss for giving me this super 1 month leave, my team members (you guys are so dead :) ) and all the people on who had something or other to do with my preparations.

Thanks a ton guys!

I’ll keep ya posted how its going.

am i hearing right?

my brother likes the bloody americans?
and their freaking country???

OMG the aliens have repalced my brothers brains!
NOoooooooooooooooooooooooooo...

SOMEBODY HELP ME!
anybody

Can I CRY?

I don’t know what is wrong with me
Yesterday and today

I am feeling like…
Crying
Sleeping
Running away
Crying

Suddenly I am missing…
My Mama
My Papa
Tommy Leanne
My Peekacho (love you bro)
You

I am feeling like…
Crying

I am…
Fed up
Listening to senti music
Not eating
Losing interest
Lost in thought

I wonder…
What I want to do
If I can live without you
Where my life is leading
When I will get to walk down the aisle (this time not as a bridesmaid!)
When I will have my triplets

I no longer know…
What to do
What to say
How to behave
Where to go

What am I looking for?
Is it something?
Is it someone?
Is it someplace?
Is it just me?

I just want to CRY!

Can I Cry?