am i hearing right?

my brother likes the bloody americans?
and their freaking country???

OMG the aliens have repalced my brothers brains!
NOoooooooooooooooooooooooooo...

SOMEBODY HELP ME!
anybody

About Today

It is Saturday
I need to go to work
But I don’t complain

The journey took long
Today there’s no music, no books
Nothing to grab my attention
But you

The faces go by
Hoards of advertisings hits me
And suddenly I realize
I just cannot see…
More of the blue skies
More of the birds
More of you

Then it’s different
It always is
Watching that smile
Watching that stride
Just watching you

There was something different today
There was you
And then there was me
There was no reason
There we were, just friends you say
Having fun, if you may

So I am a drama queen
So I love walking
So I say, you must get the hoarding
And so I tell you a million things

I know you listen
I know you see
I know I am in the picture, somewhere
Is it black and white?
Is it coloured?
But, I know there’s something in there bigger than me

With me goodbyes are never easy
I hate them, cos I will be lonely
I have no one to go home to
It’s my choice, but still…
I hate letting go, cos I will have to wait one day more

competition for a christmas tree

so today was one of those days that i went tinsel shopping.
there's a christmas party happening in the summer.
and yes i am being sarcastic.
really sarcastic.
so as i was saying.
i went shopping.
and i bought jewelery.
in red and blue and gold.
ear rings.
necklaces.
in matching sets.
a bracelet.
and.
yeah that was it.
thats to add onto the christmas tree outfit that i am supposed to wear.
or i might just end up looking poor.
and my mom would kill me if i try pulling such a stunt.
you see it's this gala mega event of the summer season happening.
a wedding.
a punju wedding.
and as much as i screamed "it aint my wedding."
i still need to be a christmas tree.
deck the tree with bows of holly.
fa la la la la la.

Can I CRY?

I don’t know what is wrong with me
Yesterday and today

I am feeling like…
Crying
Sleeping
Running away
Crying

Suddenly I am missing…
My Mama
My Papa
Tommy Leanne
My Peekacho (love you bro)
You

I am feeling like…
Crying

I am…
Fed up
Listening to senti music
Not eating
Losing interest
Lost in thought

I wonder…
What I want to do
If I can live without you
Where my life is leading
When I will get to walk down the aisle (this time not as a bridesmaid!)
When I will have my triplets

I no longer know…
What to do
What to say
How to behave
Where to go

What am I looking for?
Is it something?
Is it someone?
Is it someplace?
Is it just me?

I just want to CRY!

Can I Cry?

Wot a freaky day it was…

For the record I am sloshed!
Even so I can write and in all my senses I state that the below words are true to the best of my knowledge.

So the day begins…
8.55 am. Cussing for forced to being rudely awoken up by the alarm, a good 40 mins later than usual!
Then do my rituals and go to pick up my travel insurance papers.
Ok so there I am and I am NOT going to take off my shoes this time. Bloody hell after I spent a good 5 mins double-knotting my converse I don’t think unknotting them is worth the effort.
So after picking my papers, begins the debate…

10:05 am. Bus or train. Bus or train. Bus or train. Train? Train? Yup train wins. So I decide to walk to the station (I could lose some weight & save Rs. 13 too). Today being the first of April and the beginning of the next financial year I decide its high time I save up something & do so by saving up on the little things.

10:45 am. I am so late for work and out of money. So I go to the ATM to collect some cash. Sigh, my balance does not look good, it has never!

Then it’s the usual… boring mundane work… client servicing guys breathing down your neck… deadlines to be met… unrealistic commitments, etc etc.

12:50 pm. My book is here! Thank god. I was stuck in a brain dead brainstorming session. But am glad, my ‘Europe on a shoestring budget’ from the Lonely Planet is finally in my hands.

1:15 pm. Even better news. Moni is here!!! (for all those who don’t know Moni, she’s my best girlfriend, and she got married recently, so am really glad she is back even if it is for a few days)

Day continues… boring… b… o… r… i… n… g!

7:00 pm. Yatin calls. Yeap am so ready to meet ya. Only waiting for this boy.

7:35 pm. China something. Ok fine! I forgot the name. Nothing new!! Anyways we meet up. Yatin, me and the boy who cannot be named. :)
And this evening turned out to be the best thing that I could have ever asked for. Why you ask me?
Cos here I two really important people in my life ganging up on me. I am not complaining mind you. I had fun. Well they did get me to confess a lot of things. But I meant every word of it.
Its scary you know. And they knew it. I know.
They could see right through me.
But for the second time in my life, I laid what I had to right in front of the people that mattered and I hope they knew it too.

9:40 pm. I am having a panic attack. Where’s the bill? Where is it damnit! I just got some 40 mins to get back before the gates close.

9:48 pm. Sigh! The bill is cleared. Thanks a ton again Yatin! I owe you man… I really owe you. Not for picking the bill but for being there for me. For giving me your blessings, and for simply kicking my ass. (you are one of the privileged few who have this honour)

9:51 pm. Am in a cab after saying bye to Yatin. “Am really happy for you!” (touch wood… so am I)
Also after saying bye to the boy who cannot be named I am off home or to the prison I live in 

10:19 pm. I walk in the prison gates. And rudely they close the gates after me.

10:45 pm. Sleeping on my bed… staring at the ceiling, wondering if I am really stoned?! Suddenly I feel this need to blog. Out comes my laptop and the words flow…

11:20 pm. Bath break, for some insane reason I decide to have a steaming hot bath in the summer. I am still wondering why?

11:40 pm. Out of bath and back blogging.

11:56 pm. Done! Now I know what I had to say got said. I am happy today :)

It’s finally hitting me!

Deep breaths I say to myself!
Am I really going to be doing this?
YES
Yes I am... I am scared I won’t lie
But I am super excited and still you don’t know why!