12 days on a holiday! --- Day 1:

So I am home. It’s different this time on. Why because for the first time in all my 25 years my brother’s not at home. No one to ignore me, no one to steal kisses from me, no one to irritate me, no one to call me by silly names, no one to run to in case of technical issues… my brother is just not there!

Where did he go, you ask? H re-located as his job demanded so. I understand because I did the same for my career, but its just lonely being the only child at home.

Getting home was not tough. How difficult could it be? I love traveling, especially in the monsoons. So the facts that I had to travel by train dint bother me a bit. Ok I had everyone worried. The day I was to leave the rain gods decided to unleash their blessings. But it’s the rainy reason!

Anyway, my train journey was not that great. I read Harry Potter & the Deathy Hallows, listened to music and dozed off to sleep. Morning, I stood watching the scenes pass me by. The simplicity of life, gripped me. Shepard’s watching their flock, children running to keep up with a speeding train waving at you, women with pots on their head coyly simple at you, while some wash clothes by the stream, the green fields, the simple houses... everything was so so… WOW! For once I felt at peace with myself. Sigh.

(Hey check some of the pictures I clicked)

My dad was there to pick me. And even gave the car keys to me to drive home. Now that’s something I love --- Driving! I find it extremely relaxing! 20 minutes and I was home… into the opens arms of my mom. Bet my family was happy to see me and same here! It’s been so long. Even my cat was glad to see me.

What I intend to do at home?

Sleep, relax, help around at home, watch TV, spend quality time with my cat, experience what’s it to be an only child, eat chocolates, sit by the beach and get a PhD in doing nothing!

That’s it for today!

Its friendship day tomorrow and my friends have already started pouring in their greetings.

50 Good Girl Commandments

The 50 Good Girl Commandments, or ‘GG-ologue’, are a list of religious and moral imperatives which, are written by ‘greycellsinxs’ and her aid ‘the dark side of the loon.’

Blessed by the Holy One on Mount Moron, these not two but five stone tablets, hold the unspoken truth that about every girls dilemma!

The phrase "50 Good Girl Commandments" generally refers to suppression of the feminine mind. Brain washed, would be more apt, that too done most likely by a family member or society at large.

Here they are as the thought struck…

1. Thou shall honour the wishes of your parents.
2. Thou shall always be home by 7.
3. Thou shall not wear skirts above the knees.
4. Thou shall work towards world peace.
5. Thou shall not display cleavage.
6. Thou shall always cover your head when you go out.
7. Thou shall not have sex before marriage.
8. Thou shall not mouth swear words.
9. Thou shall have only girlfriends.
10. Thou shall not steal covert looks at hot guys.
11. Thou shall only listen to spiritual music.
12. Thou shall not read thrash! (Mills & Boons, Harlequin Romance, etc)
13. Thou shall only watch PG rated programmes.
14. Thou shall not listen to hip hop, rap.
15. Thou shall not adorn thy room with rockstar posters!
16. Thou shall only eat health food.
17. Thou shall not bad mouth others.
18. Thou shall always be eager to please.
19. Thou shall not flirt.
20. Thou shall not watch porn.
21. Thou shall only work towards the betterment of the society.
22. Thou shall not engage in activities such as kissing.
23. Thou shall always help others in need.
24. Thou shall not aspire to be a wanna-be.
25. Thou shall rescue strays.
26. Thou shall not pierce your nipples.
27. Thou shall not adorn thy body with tattoos.
28. Thou shall not smoke.
29. Thou shall not fantasize.
30. Thou shall stay away from alcohol.
31. Thou shall not fall in love with your best guy friend.
32. Thou shall not bunk lectures/work.
33. Thou shall not wear red lipstick.
34. Thou shall believe in fairy tales.
35. Thou shall dream of Prince Charming, white horse et all.
36. Thou shall not overtake while driving.
37. Thou shall indulge in hobbies such as art and gardening.
38. Thou shall not sport short hair.
39. Thou shall not wear sexy high heeled shoes.
40. Thou shall not do it doggy style.
41. Thou shall not swallow.
42. Thou shall emulate a nun.
43. Thou shall not go skinny dipping.
44. Thou shall not get a Brazilian wax.
45. Thou shall only dream of a white marriage.
46. Thou shall stay away from bad boys.
47. Thou shall always feel guilty after sex.
48. Thou shall never masturbate.
49. Thou shall not wear sexy lingerie.
50. Thou shall never go commando.

So remember, all said and done RULES ARE MEANT TO BE BROKEN!
Live life, it’s short, it’s fun and it’s worth the risk.

But while you are at it…
PLAY SAFE!

Why did you let go?

May be the time was right.
May be you felt what you were doing was right.
May be you thought we had nowhere to go.
May be you thought I would not know.
May be you thought I would not understand.
May be you realized I could finally comprehend…
The hard reality and the pain

Perhaps you thought it was not possible.
Perhaps you felt the space was grace.
Perhaps you cared more than I did.
Perhaps you thought things through.
Perhaps things would have been different…
But did you ask me? Hadn’t I had the right to know!

I will never know,
Cos you never told me so.

I will never feel,
Cos you never let me to do so.

I will not cry,
Cos you always said only girls do so.

But the question still remains…
Why did you let go!

My Works of Art

Pieta in Pencil






Boats in Oils

Iris - etched in glass

What are you scared of?

Me?
Ever since I have been a little girl, I hid behind my mom’s skirt. Afraid to face the world, secure in the shadow of my mom. But what was I scared of then? New faces. People always wanting to pinch my chubby cheeks. Amid the pain I was forced to smile, when all I wanted to scream was, “Stay away you crazy auntie! That hurts!” But as a kid I was scared that action of mine would have brought a punishment, least embarrassed my parents.

But as life passes by you learn to take a stand. You learn to fight the odds.
Growing up teaches you a lot of things.

Now as I look back I realize my school days were the best of days. The pocket money, play time and the only tension one had in the world was -- studying!
Come junior college and there you are thrown in a new environment. What to do? What to say? How do I be cool? Will others like me? Suddenly all I am scared of is – will I be liked by others?

A little later in life I was thrown into a professional college! And as everyone knows, the ragging in professional colleges is inhumane at times. I don’t know how I was spared but I guess my smile and being friends with a few senior boys, literally saved my ass! Believe me I was shit scared the few months of college. Then life became one huge party without actually partying.

All secure for the next 5 years and then suddenly I got to make a living! Support myself, prove myself! Thrown in the advertising industry, believe me mate it’s not easy, I did struggle in spite the fact that I was a university topper! Ok but I guess its life’s way of telling you nothing is easy. Nothing come free! I was not exactly scared of this new challenge but this meant giving up everything I held dear. Arises once again; the questions. Do I really need to leave home to do this? How important is this to me? What am I going to do? Suddenly the odds were against me.

Consider this, I know I am not the only one here but, after 22 years of living in a secure environment with everything at my disposal (a bike of my own, my own room, no chores to do, living in absolute luxury), now I have to take a decision of my own. Some of which would reflect in everything I do. I have never before handled finances, and now I got to shop for groceries, spend on travel, accommodation and what not, and still have to save. So I do I do this?
Scared again was I? I would being lying if I said no!

That’s not all… what else could I have been scared of? Falling in love, maybe?
For all my 23 years I had never known what this feeling was. I didn’t want to give someone the power to hurt me. I was scared of getting hurt. Scared of getting left behind. Scared of not knowing what to do. Scared! Scared! Scared! It was my biggest fear.
May be that’s why I never gave it shot. That, and my mom always wanting something else from me. Then suddenly one fine day I stop caring. I took the plunge! I lived without fear. I guess someone showed me how. I suddenly had all that it would take to fight the odds. It was a testing time. I loved every moment of it. Never a regret. Never will regret a moment of it. Cos this all this taught me one important lesson. “Take a stand for your happiness. No one will do it for you.”
Did I win this battle you ask? That’s an answer you will never know.

All said and done, there’s one thing I would love to share, LIVE IN CONSTANT FEAR. Cause fear will keep you at the edge of your seat. Fear won’t let you lose out.

Tell me if it’s time to move on…

Move on from what you ask?
From a thing so dear,
That now it causes nothing but pain,
May be that and fear.

You got to move on,
They told me,
Yet I held on to hope,
No all I can think of is doing dope.

But as I drown in these mucky waters
There comes friends I know who throw me a rope.
Grab on Jo, they tell me
But the words sound a distance echo.

Where am I?
What do I do?
How do I live now?
How do I live without you?

I laugh.
I smile.
I put on a brave front.
But deep inside I am torn through and through!

I honestly don’t know what to do.
I want to cry my heart out
Blame the world
Hold everyone responsible
But what the f***
I know no cares
Or gives a shit what you do.

Worry not about me.
I will learn to walk again.
Thanks to the chosen few,
May be with thanks to you,
I could learn to live again.

I will learn to live again!

My walk in the rain…

Pitter patter comes down the rain.
I splash about in fun avoiding the drains.
The water gushes, raindrops pelt against me
Yet amid all this I am smiling for reasons known only to me.

It’s the start of the monsoons,
A season I look forward to.
The cool winds, the mighty drops
That helps somehow drown the tears within.

There’s nothing to lose
Everything to gain
And as I turn my face towards the rain
I see a young woman being a child again.

Fighting the rain across me walks a young dad with his child in tow
And that brought back memories of long before
Mama screaming not to get wet
But as a child filling up my gumboots with water was all I cared.

No matter the weather,
No fear of the streams running through.
Finding a path for the paper boats we made
And winning the race was all that we as kids cared so true.

Come to think of it.
There began life’s first lesson.
Me and my paper boat
And the message to swim against all odds.

So as everyone battles the rains,
Some cuss
And some smile in vain…
But I tell you my friend
There’s nothing better
Nothing more refreshing
Than a simple walk in the rain.

STICK to the LIST!

Ok people I am having a mid-20s crisis!

Here’s what the doc prescribed…


25 must haves; I must have on my 25th birthday!!!

1. Calvin & Hobbes Comic Book series.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_Calvin_and_Hobbes_books
(have read The Days are Just Packed!)

2. Harry Potter & the Deathly Hallows.

3. Black t-shirts from Westside. Size M-12

4. Pink t-shirts from Westside. Size M-12.
(stay away from the plunging neckline, no matter how enticing they look)

5. A pair of Levi’s.
Size 30. Boot cut. Low-rise. Most importantly blue!

6. Junk jewellery.
Just see that there are trinkets of pink!

7. Lifetime membership at PVR.

8. I-phone!
(need I say more?)

9. Books by some Indian Authors.
Kavita Daswani, Anurag Joshi, Kiran Desai, Rupa Gulab and the likes.
Please ask before buying as have read most of them, but still if there’s a new book pick it!

10. Skirts.
A-line. Colourful and keep them short!

11. More books - Hell Island by Matthew Reilly

12. More More books - Area 7 by Matthew Reilly

13. Even more books - Hover Car Racer by Matthew Reilly

14. Life in a METRO… the DVD.
Loved this movie!

15. A pair of Adidas shoes

16. Holiday to the Andaman’s

17. A trip to London, Paris…

18. A bouquet of red roses…
at least 25 of them.

19. Tickets to a F1 grand prix!

20. First class tickets to a cricket match. South Africa vs whoever! In Mumbai!

21. Nokia N 95

22. An iPOD

23. Pink by Aerosmith!

24. Sponsor a tattoo session.

25. A diamond ring!!!


P.S.: Guys please co-ordinate with each other whose getting me what, don’t want 2 of the same things.

NOTE: this list is the sole property and copyright of greycellsinxs. Any one found to be duplicating the same shall be SLAPPED with a legal notice of infringement!

Ok the IMPORTANT thing here is get all the stuff by the 28th of JUNE 2007.

& THANK YOU!

Life in a METRO

It’s a battle of survival
From the beggar child who knocks at your window to the CEO of an MNC; everyone fends only for themselves. I do too.

Even the shortest journey’s the longest
Yeah believe it I could go from the north to the south by a vehicle in 2 hours flat! But a simple 54 kms journey will take you no less than 1 1/2 hour and that too by train.

It’s a battle against time
No one’s got the time. The word here is ‘Jaldi’ or just stand out of my way should I push you reaching my deadline.

A culture clash
There are people from walks of life! It’s India in a capsule. Amazing but true.

Love blossoms around every corner
It’s amazing but true. Look around you see couples blissfully unaware. No matter what society implies, loves got to do what love has got to do. How else you tell me?

The work never ends
Call it corporization or wanting to make money, at the end of the day everyone’s underpaid.

Home is where the work is
For all those who come to the metro, work becomes home. It’s here that you find the most comfort. Going back to your dwelling place is a pain.

Weekends are party-time
No matter what you do, the weekends are known to be stress busters. Party all night! Shaking that booty is all that matters!

The movies are where the action is
We are talking about action on screen. Not like-wise. No doubt the multiplexes rip you off but it offers some solace for a few hours and catch the latest of them blockbusters.

Public transport is the only way to get around
Come on face it! We all would like to be driven around in private cars, but everyone’s a struggler in the big city. Public transport is a blessing in disguise.

It’s the best place to be
No matter what people say! No mater the cursing! No matter the pollution!
The blur of people, the blur of life… here’s where everyone wants to be!

And LOVE is…

Saying I Love you?

Ok let’s get this straight.
Love is all that one needs yet no one seems to ever get it. Its nature’s sick way of tricking people to… umm reproduce themselves indefinitely mostly for pleasure. And as if by doing so you are going to spread the love? Sex is great, but is it love?

Love also categories itself as a killer method to waste time, money and energy! Mostly yours.

Love is known to f%$# you royally! My bet don’t bother f%$#ing with it. (Physically or like-wise)

Love… lust? Is there a difference?
Just do one thing avoid Love at all cost, not because it simply sucks (stop thinking laterally), it just sucks period!
It jeopardizes all plans of sanity and ends up with you making an ass of yourself!

What’s worse… Love finds you watching soppy love movies, eating ice-cream and spending valuable time day dreaming.
Basically love causes you to fantasize with rather no result.


Ok so what’s my point?
Love; you can’t live with it nor can you live with it.